Thursday, February 26, 2015
Something is cooking.
I saw all four of them standing together in K's cubic, whispering. And when I entered they all stalled their khuserphuser.
Were they talking about me?
Actually, to be honest, I am the only one who creates problems, and do things which no one likes, who doesn't know how to behave, who is illiterate, non-professional, rotten, unfriendly and all that.
I have once over heard them saying few things about me. So when ever they do their whispering business, I get alert. I get so alert that I stop doing whatever I am doing and start thinking:" What have I done now?"
I must have done something wrong AGAIN.
Maybe they were thinking about something else. Discussing something which they don't wanna share with me. There could be something else.
I need to stop thinking all this.
God, this is such a small place. Everyone is in my face. I can't run away, I can't escape.
Because I am not the spiritual Sufi type who would put up with losers' bullshit.
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
I am so relax. This is good for me. No guhsa at all.
Well I was not angry, more kinda hurt.
I was haka bhaka when I first heard that on last Thursday. "What are you saying?" " It is impossible"..type situation.
And I reacted like a child, a small spoiled child.
Thursday, February 19, 2015
Who said I forgot Q and Z?
I never considered them my friends from the day one.
To me they are outsiders and I didn't count them at all for the treat. When they came, I greeted them with my fake smile and asked F to run and grab two more KFC's burgers for them. That's all.
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
Saturday, February 14, 2015
Today a woman in bus commented on my reading.
"Dekho beeta, bus mein parhney akakhon key leaye acha nahai......something"
"See, Reading in a bus is not good for vision."
I stopped reading immediately. Closed my book and hide in my back pack without saying a word.
Kahein nazer na laga dey.
I stopped reading because I don't want to be jinxed.It was again an elderly woman on bus sitting next to me told me about jinxing couple of years ago. She was very spiritual type with tassbe in her right hand.
"Dekho beeta, don't read in front of everyone, people don't read, so they will jinx. Nazer laga dein gy"
Sorry to say I am more convince with jinxing thing.Allah maaf kaery. This was not the first time. People (read: women) always comment on my reading, stare and sometimes make faces.
When you travel in bus you meet so many people. They all have their own theories. I may not stop reading but how I say without being rude " People should start reading in Pakistan instead of commenting on others."
My problem is that I have to read, and it's a quite long route. And because it is a long route and I am out most of the time, riding on bus is where I get time, a proper forty five minutes time to read books, prepare my lectures and presentations.
Should not I make most of that time?
How I passe my long route?
By talking with stranger women or looking out?
Thank you, but no thank you.
When I got back first thing I did was Googling " Is reading in bus harmful for eyes?"
I am copy pasting what I found on New York Times:
"""Reading in the car is not really bad for your health, although it can make you feel bad,” said Dr. Michael G. Stewart, chairman of the department of otorhinolaryngology at NewYork-Presbyterian Hospital/Weill Cornell Medical College.
“The issue is the disconnect between what your eyes see and your body feels, which can give you vertigo”The problem with reading in the car is that your vision is fixed on an object that is not moving, but your body and inner ear perceive motion, so it can induce vertigo in some,” Dr. Stewart said.
“The best cure is to regularly look up, and regain your visual perspective of motion, but even then, the action of focusing on the book while your body feels motion can briefly induce vertigo.”
"" If you can read in the car without its bothering you, it’s O.K. to do,” Dr. Stewart said. “If you have a hard time, avoid it, or do it only for brief intervals, trying to keep your perspective on motion as much as possible.”
Alhumdu Allah I never had issue of dizziness so far, not even a headache. In simplewords, it is Ok to read unless you ain't stressing your eyes. However, just because of this bilawajaey ka tokna, (like people do) I am seriously thinking about buying a good mobile phone where I have option of FM or other things to kill my time on being bus.
Hot dudes reading books.