Not in all skin and bone ,emaciated way. Actually I want to be fit and tight ahah (what a word_-tight).Don't take me wrong .I am really so worried :(.Feeling unhealthy and sad !Because truth is this is not looking good. Every one is noticing it too.Whether I like it or not I am becoming pear, apple, foot ball....what ever.... ever ! I can not afford this few extra pounds .Why ?Because I'm short .I am OK with it.This is how God made me!But sorry this extra few pound/wight gaining stuff is otta my league.
Pleases understand this irony here.If you short and slim it is digestible but God dammit, if you short and fat .You are ugly. And I am looking ugly.The whole world should be happy .She is ugly now.First she was tiny short girl now this new crap.I want to slap my self !!!! Seriously .Yes, Slap my self.
This occur me always, but embarrassed me yesterday, when I was getting ready for a party, and I felt my beautiful dress so tight around me arms .All the time at party I was conscious about it I kept my shawl wrapped around me and cramp the the beauty of that dress .Not only that .I checked my other dress too.They all tight now.At home I wear lose shirts so I never felt it .
O lord, I'm getting fat !!!!!!!! :( I always have flabby arms, but I keep them tone (by stop eating,that's only thing I know), and from past 2 or 3 months I am gaining weight .I personally hate my flab,who does not? They are extra fat, and I have no idea how to tone the arm muscles.When I check my weight I was 46 kg, which is not that bad, but I'm getting flab around my arms which I really don't know why ! I eat healthy food at time. Proper breakfast.Walking . Physically and mentally active. I mean, I am actually doing what ever I used to do and never have had that problem .OK ,I am foodie but I also burn my calories as well.
Believe me, I personally feel heavy and unhealthy,when ever I gain weight occasionally. I don't care others two cents .But peeps around me really saying it .Every one is noticing .And most importantly,like, I say, I feel gross and uncomfortable. That's why I want to retain ideal weight for me (43 kg ). I want to loss few ponds. Yeah, It is not a big deal for you, but for me it is .It is not essay for me to loss 3kg .
That's why I envy all people
Skinny and tall models .I hate all of you
Hitting gym is not an bad idea.Many girls than usual are hitting the gym these days . Gym memberships are becoming famous.But not everyone who belongs to a gym actually spends a lot of time working out. It’s easy to have good intentions about exercising, and losing weight.
Actually ,getting on a treadmill is a little harder for me .I do not feel like working out. I hate working out.I like walking fast in open air . Heart’s pumping. A little sweat. You feel your muscles ache.If I start working out too much, I get all bulky.I just want to walk fast, and feel the burn. It feels so good to walk .But God Dammit,It is not working !!!! Because I do walking crap almost every day .I do clean my apartment after every 2nd day . So It is pissing me off that when I am on right track than what the bakwas is this?
I like yoga too. I feel like it’s the perfect balance ‘cause I don’t like the fast-paced stuff, ‘cause it just makes me dizzy. But yoga is a good core workout, I will get lean. I like it.Alright then , let’s do it. Let’s go, let’s walk, and do yoga.
My Biggest problem is that I'm hooked up with all kind of food .I can not be hungry .I don't want to go on crash diet.Now at age 25 I can not do it .I can not skip meals .I don't wanna do it ! I have done that crap too when I was in 9th grade, and I felt so sleepy and run otta steam .And girls should never do it .I have had menses problem after that . You need food healthy stuff ,especially girls. .Horrible option .Big way, I can not reining in food, and those kids drug ADHD ?????????? Excuse me ????
Another thing is sugar .Yes sugar .This is only crap mistake I am taking in .I drink 3 to 4 cuppa tea, daily .One cup = 2 spoon sugar, and 4 cup = 8 spoon.
OK so , I have decided to take only 2 spoon sugar in morning to fuel me . If I don't do my B.P would go down and I would fall down .Anyway,I can rein in sugar, and sodium .Hope it help me to keep me healthy, and retain my ideal weight.
Oh God, why this is happening ?