These day.

Hope you are all doing well.

Finally lockdown has been uplifted. This is 4th or 5th wave of Corona in Pakistan. I no longer  keep the count of it, at all. Life is all about being normal for a month and then back to lockdown.  Luckily, I did one shoot ( view here) before the lockdown. Eid Al Adha was just ritual. My summer break is till August 23. Since Eid, my mood is so gloomy. I have no idea whether it is because of  my POCS, meds, or stupidity. 

My mind works in strange ways. I get hopeful for things which are totally impossible. It takes me months to make myself realize that whatever the hell I am thinking is not gonna happened, ever. There is nothing I can understand. At the age of 35, I am standing where I started from with same uncertainty. Every time I am back to where I started from. It is a viscous circle. Only time is passing. And this is my biggest pet peeve. 

Life should keep going on. At this stage, summer breaks and lockdowns are killing me.  I am happy with routine as my life is all about passing days.