Back to those days

I am again back to those days where I don't want to come back home. It is like a death. 

 Death of my emotions. And when I don't feel anything, I can't do anything. I raised my self on emotions, now facing the music. 

No one told me to suck it up. 

Discipline yourself. 

Blessed are those who have master the art of pretending.  It is not for me despite trying a lot.