Not in a mood of proper ranting .Everything is pretty normal at my side .I am writing this at the end of my normal day .Same morning .Same evening .Only days are passing . I am feeling lonely.Cherry on the top .Nothing much to do at a moment. It is quite boring these days .May be this is December. Getting colder day by day .Winter here stays for not more than 2 months . Shawl and scarf is enough for me.Sweaters are so nerdy and unsexy.
Already there is no one to like me and now with layers of woolen sweater who is gonna like me :(? December will run away just like whole boring year passed . Life will be same same . Next year in Feb I be 26 .You you believe.I be 26 and single.Goddammit ! I should have 4 little house apes running around by now .Beating my self. Almost all my friends have been paired up ,engaged or married and I' have not meet my soul mate , who loves me , whose world move around me .
Usually, I am gleeful but form past two week I am self scrutinizing . What the hell I am doing so wrong ?Am I so ugly ..so fat ..or not good enough to be someone's wife/gal ?In the end of the day I am human I also want someone.I just don't want to be on my own anymore. Dating is no more attracting to me. It just don't work here .On the other hand, I ain't that dare to play it properly .Lying at home just not my thing .If I have to fall in love I would trumpet it to whole vein world.
I haven't experience true love yet. I know that my soulmate is out there, but million dollar question is when I will meet him ? It is good to have someone nice around . Hold me and touch me . Some one who walk with me in life.I want to be with someone 's eye candy ,sweet heart and babe.Whose center of attraction be me.Who loves me and only loves me.Never every look other woman.I be his whole universe.
And who looks like him :
Am I asking too much ?