I saw him twice today and didn't say ' hi ' for my own peace of mind. Completely ignoring him since last month, and I know he is dumb ass, would not mind that either. Actually I don't have that dil to go through all that once again with anyone. I hope you know what I am trying to say. Like, when we started talking I was kinda OK, and thought lets see, we will be friends sort of things, but after ward, felt so wrong and could not connected. All blame is on me.
And this is not a first time, and actually a real reason I am running away. And playing games.
Every time I meet some one I have this strong feeling I am repeating the mistake I
did years ago. Even though I got over with M pretty well, and I was not that sad about
us. OK, yeah I cried a lot... a lot .. I even begged him not to leave like a complete loser. Though after passing time I literally forgot everything. Zero in on important things in my life
Moved on with cool mind, but had no idea it will haunt me like that I'll not be able to start again. It wasn't love. I don't miss him. No feeling at all. COLD.
Whatever it was, my bad. I hurt my self in such a bad way that time could not heal my wounds.
Note: Nigga, please. No sympathy. Just scribbling it down for the sake of understanding few things. You can slap me. I need that more.