Thursday, March 17, 2016
Letting it go.
It is hard to let it go. All wrong calculation, assumption, emotions, and feelings brought me once again where I was in 2010 😕. No one realized how hard it was for me to accept it once again. I was happy just to see it and starting thinking it is for me. It was another illusion. I was wrong once again. It wasn't for me. Despite knowing all that I fooled and humiliate my self once again. There is this loser type pattern I have been following for so long. In the end I am just hurt. Let's call it a phase. I'm fixing it. All I'm paying that if it is not for me then it ends as quickly as possible so I get outta this funk.